12/10/2007 - oh now feel it comin' back again like a rollin' thunder chasing the wind

hey you--i dunno if you bother with this page or not as you told me it makes you sad....this really isn't even about anything--it is random thoughts in my head... i miss having someone to talk to. I miss having someone I trust to get ideas from. Oh well we are so much alike I guess I may as well be alone as much as you are......

part of life I guess...

not much to report in. My head is busy as usual... i had a long mental day. not that it matters. I tried talking some sense into my son.

I WANT my son back.

but i guess that is something only i can fix if i can

then eric last night--WTF was he so afraid to tell me that it would piss me off... You are finding a mistress.... that would do it.

Or was he afraid to tell me I am stuck here? LOL I KNOW this..I have known this since the beginning..helll iuttered them to you maybe a 1000 times did I not?

had it out with Lisa today--bad timing on her part. She snapped at me because I refused to be baited by her at work..Her constant bitching about everyonbe and everything.

She told me it must be nice that 'everything' in my life was going well...

Holy fuking hell that was it... I let it all fly from How FUCKED up my kid is..to How ****ing FAKE and phoney my whole life is.and that ICE runs thru my veins as I talk to NO ONE anymore period. Even anything anyone feels as affection around here is as fake as the day is long....

How close she is to losing her job and if that's what she wants she is doing a good job at it... How childish and bull**** it was for her to pitch this fit that i had angelo wait on me.. It was because her ****ing attitutde at work that I had Angelo wait on me to begin with...

let's see I don't think I jumped anyone else's **** or pissed anyone else off....but it is 7:30pm yet....

i miss you .