12/6/2007 - I remember you---

dammit i managed to stay busy today... days off are hard.

yea I am missin ya-- a friend of mine was telling me my colors are all over the place today but mostly very dark...black, deep purple (which is you), crimson...

I had to tell them..one of those days..it could go either way, lol--- as long as no one pisses me off i'll be fine...heheheheheh--can you say TURBULENCE..oh I know you can.

I am thinking about your self less act--of giving up Eric..so many other self less acts, so many you don't see them. I guess alot of you is all about sacrifice, eh?

i know the storm on the horizon..you hated this year? lol--cake walk compared to what is blowin in your direction..****.

and me--well all i can do is watch, wait..and do whatever you ask of me. I will be HERE. I will be here as i always have been. because you know what, whether you admit it to YOU or not it's where I belong....remember the days of mike and the mechanics..going thru my head constantly--can you hear me running..can you hear me calling you?

well as the birth of your son draws near the next thing is screaming at me. like I said even your damn grandmother is back..i have no idea WHAT they all want from ME..... and this time I am alone...Eric is gone. Might as well have left the planet.

dammit--but i am happy for him. I guess that is another thing to learn from you--to NEED no one but yourself...no matter what I see....dammit.

well I have to go to school. I miss ya--lol especially at lunch time how odd huh? that was a damn life time ago..but it was simpler then..you know?--ahh baby you haven't seen nothing yet.

trust me when i say TAKE my strength as I have given it freely to you so many times before..I FEEL that old familiar sign of danger just past the focal point where we can see it.. and it is closer then either of us think...Hold on. Here we go again...

love ya--- this song has been running thru my head you probably don't know it...called..I remember you, by Skid Row---

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
The wind would whisper and I'd think of you
And all the tears you cried, that called my name
And when you needed me I came through

I paint a picture of the days gone by
When love went blind and you would make me see
I'd stare a lifetime into your eyes
So that I knew you were there for me
Time after time you were there for me

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you

We spend the summer with the top rolled down
Wished ever after would be like this
You said I love you babe, without a sound
I said I'd give my life for just one kiss
I'd live for your smile and die for your kiss

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you

We've had our share of hard times
But that's the price we paid
And through it all we kept the promise that we made
I swear you'll never be lonely

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
Washed away a dream of you
But nothing else could ever take you away
'Cause you'll always be my dream come true
Oh my darling, I love you

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you