There is something about Johnna that i really like. Well, there are lots of things actually.  shes been the new chatter in my life for the moment. And its caused me to think about things i have not wanted to think about.. but i geuss maybe at some point i need to.

People tell me that when you find someone who is like you, then you become pals. Or that, when two ppl have a common bond, a friendship can accure.. well i dont know who or what told them that cause i have never found someone like me, not even Kris. She and I are as different as night and day. Sometimes, i get down cause ppl come in and out of my life so fast i often wonder why. What was my purpose for that person, was there a perpose.. and if so did i complete it or not?

I miss Tanya. i miss Christina. I miss Amber.. i miss i miss i miss. Tanya, was married when i met her, and we had a good time as pals. Found out her wife was cheating on her, fell off the face of the planet, came back with a new love and now we dont talk. and i miss her. Christina was single, and great. She was charming and funny and informative.. she too found love and we havent spoken since. And Amber, who needs me when shes got issues, but never when she doesnt. I just dont know.  Sometimes, i dont feel like befriending anyone cause, they will just leave and it hurts my heart. Cause i invest alot into any friendship, esp my heart.. and its never lasted. 

There is Beth, and she and I have been pals for along time. Internet buddies only. and i like her.. however she and I keep a distance always cause we both know that at some point, we may never talk again. So to invest to much would be a waste of time and we both understand and respect that. However, she and I have been talking for years. And its seemed to work.

Sometimes i wonder when she, Johnna will leave as well. For someone as nice and special as she is, will not be single for long. And i hope she does find the one who makes her whole. She really deserves it. And i shall be happy for her, as I am for all the others.

just, sometimes.. i miss the ones i use to talk to. i miss Randi.